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October Favorites

i cant even believe November is here. i’m headed out on vacation soon {whoops i was supposed to post this before vacation and i didnt…} and i just wantedd to get out one last post before i head off!! im so excited. sun. sand. sea. ahh life will be so lovely. this is a family trip! were excited to share our 5 year wedding anniversary with the people we love most!

back to the post. all of these things are things ive been using for the last few months and have been the things i keep using over and over. obsessed? yea. =D enough of this on to my favorites

October 2015 Favorites!

October 2015 Favorites!

ONE first aid beauty’s cleanser, toning pads, and face cream. These products were a game changer for my face. i was in a serious rut with my skin routine, for the longest time i was using Clinique, which used to work well for me.  but the older i get it seems the dryer i get. my skin was SO bad dry, i wanted to cry. i headed over to Sephora, thinking all i needed was to get a foundation for dry skin and an associate (parm) went through several questions with me and we found out it was just the harsh of the Clinique! so i got a “travel” type pack as a test to see if i liked it, and it changed my skin. Within 3 days i noticed a crazy change in my dry skin which i had been battling for months. i’m about 6 months into this new skin routine, and although i have one other eye cream i use (a later post) my skin has never been so clear and so healthy in my life! the travel packs are 40$ i think!
TWO my shade + light contour palette is my new life. its a perfect all in one, the perfect skin toned, and banana powder, and the perfect bronzer colour. my life is complete and its a perfect palette to travel with as its an all in one! 55$
THREE squeak!! this colour though! So i was walking through the mall and decided i wanted to get a few new teas, and i walked into David’s Tea and YES there she was. The perfect travel mug. it has a  built in infuser that you can pop your tea in and screw on the bottom of your lid, or you can take it off and drink coffee out of it. This cup is life. The first time i used it i made a tea at 745 am to take to the children’s hospital to take Oakley for his foot appointment. Well i took it in with me and it was too hot to drink. Our appt ended at 12? 1? i went to the mall, walked around and finally got home at 330 when i opened my mug and it was still steaming HOT. AMAZING!!!!! 30$
FOUR the best brush ever! it detangles, is gentle and works amazing on my wet hair without breaking it! especially since recently i went from red to blonde! im being super gentle and it is just the BEST brush! i got mine at cosmo prof  but ive seen them at all large stores like walmart and target and superstore! 15$
FIVE on the days i drink coffee this is IT!!!! its a medium  blend and is hazelnut! My absolute fav! i used to drink like Tim Hortons coffee etc but NO!! and no to the starbucks! just get this!! i think the bag i buy is 13$ and lasts like a month!
SIX these seem to be my go to boots this fall so far. Ive noticed i pop them on for work dressy days and casual days to just dress up my outfit a tad! they are SO comfortable and these booties are in crazy style! 40$
SEVEN i just picked this up a superstore and usually i’m all eh on toothpastes as i feel like i cant ever find an amazing one, and although i wish this one foamed up a  bit more, it makes my teeth feel SO clean, SUCH fresh breath, and its so long lasting! 3$
EIGHT ouch, at 65ish$, its up there, but its amazing, its perfect, hydrating, buildable, and is very long lasting, i picked mine up at sephora, and my 1 bottle which is a generous size, has lasted me 3+ months and i still have more in my bottle! SCORE BABY!

Nicole

better late than never! AUGUST FAVORITES!

sorry guys! a little late with this one. 🙂 heres my favs for the month of August and i just cant.freaking.believe.its.september. IS THIS REAL LIFE RIGHT NOW? its like basically christmas lol.

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ONE oakley has been obsessed with this little set, specifically the cup with the lid, it has a little clip you pull open and closed and has the perf little hole so not so much beverage comes out at once, oak is a cronic spiller and this has done every well in our house this month!
TWO song of the month has been i love only you by nitty gritty dirt band, lord knows its old, but its just sooooo good, and everyone who knows me KNOWS i love me some country.
THREE nyx butter gloss in apple strudlelhas been my fav this month i’ve been wearing it like, everyday. i love basically all of the colours in the butter gloss but i’m really loving apple strudel, ive gone through a couple of tubes of this in the last couple months and ill be repurchasing more and more and more
FOUR SQUEAL! my new glasses! girl can see again, these are the frames i got and i love them, they are different, i never thought i would be getting a coloured frame but i did and i get compliments all the time, my husband says i look like a nerd, in a sexy good way! i got them at FYI doctors!
FIVE these are one of my JUSTFAB shoes that i recently hauled, which you can read about here, these shoes are the bomb. seriously thought, they are SO comfortable and it is crazy that i think i’m going to order another pair in fear of these ones ever get old and fall apart??
SIX greet tea lemonade {starbucks} baby! we had some super hot days in august and ive been loving this drink… of course next month youll see what my fav HOT drink is, since its been FREAKIN SNOWING WHERE I LIVE @#$P(&!@(&P!!!

 

till next time loves.
Nicole

just fab mommy haul

i cant remember the last time that i bought myself shoes or a purse. about a year or two ago i signed up for justfab and i’ve really been loving it. i say i haven’t bought myself anything in the last X amount of months but i kinda have? it automatically charges my card and i usually don’t skip a month so as it sits i had 7 credits to use so at least 7 months of charges….. which i don’t mind cause now at times like this when i’m shopping away online i dont spend a penny {that i really notice} and i get so much great stuff. have you noticed how much i love to shop???? i decided to step it up since i’m pretty well always using my diaper bag  as a purse which i love don’t get me wrong, however its not cute when i’m on my way to work or on date night. so i bought stuff that i DONT have, usually i go for flats or wedges and purses… what purse?? ive been carrying a wallet around and that’s it. so here’s my little haul of all the new pretties i got!

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ONE  alysee, shes a beauty. its like no shoe i’ve ever seen before. i think it’s so trendy and chic and is really versatile, can go with a dress, skinny jeans or dress pants
TWO ardin, i love these edgy flats, they are a synthetic snake-skin fabric and I’m in love, i plan to pair this with leggings and a plaid button up, which is SUPER trendy this year
THREE calliesa, love. i don’t own any strappy heels so again i thought i would venture out and try a pair, cant wait to put on some skinnies and put these bad as heels on
FOUR east end, i dont have not one black and gold purse and i thought it would be a perf match made in heaven with alysee
FIVE i wanted a fun pop of color relaxed back but still fancier, since when i’m dressed up i’m pretty well always in black cause i’m boring like that then this pop of hotty berry color would be amazing

till next time loves.
Nicole

BABY number TWO

now that Oakley is two i hear it all the time, whens the next one coming? so have you decided on another? are you pregnant yet? are you trying? and to be honest before i had kids i used to ask the same question to other women, not thinking anything of it, but now i find it pretty rude, maybe that’s the a-hole in me ha! i dont think people realize when they say comments like this it could hurt someones feelings or even say these things not thinking just maybe they don’t know the whole story, maybe someones having infertility issues this time around, or maybe miscarriage? or maybe juuuuuuuuuuuust maybe they don’t want to have another baby now or {just yet anyways} and thats where i fall into place. i’m SOOOOOOOO happy with just Oakley right now, he’s at the age where hes just easy. well NOT easy but he gets stuff, when i say eat he does and i don’t need to feed him, he pees/poops on the potty like a big boy, he gets dressed pretty well on his own, and well all around hes just an easy kid. he wakes we play and read and go plavces and eat and then we have lunch and then we do that all over again and then its nap. and again all over again and we eat and yet again you can get play read etc bath bed. we have such a routine and its easy. its just easy. any maybe that’s selfish of me but one works and thats’ that : ) maybe in a couple years we will want another baby because we miss that baby stage but i truly think right now and probably forever one is good for us. i also hear so many things like

‘that’s so mean only having one child’
‘your child will grow up so spoiled’
‘your so selfish’
‘that’s child abuse’
‘only child kids are so sad’
‘if you don’t have another he will be so lonely’

its amazing what people will spew out of their mouths without thinking about it. Just because somthing is right for someone else’s family does not mean its right for mine. We have one kid cause like i said its nice and easy and its our lifestyle too. we like to go places, see things, have things, do things, and i want Oakley to have things, see things, go places and do things, AND i want to be able to give him all that and more {and not the he gets what he wants spoiled little brat stuff but stuff like university tuition}. He deserves it. & if we have more kids we might not be able to do just all that. They cost a pretty penny! Luckily i get so stay home with Oakley and so we basically live on my husbands salary and i’m thankful every single day for this, but again because of this too affording one child later on in life also makes sense for us. Aside from the money and all the other little things, Tyler and I have for the longest time felt one is right for us, we feels so happy and complete and i think that’s the most important part for us, to feel complete. as for peoples comments i just agree to disagree and i don’t give it much thought, people say the darndess  things, and as long as i’m happy with my decisions that’s all that matters to me.

till next time loves.
Nicole

My Birth Story – One Year Later. PART ONE

So I never made a ‘birthstory’ and its not for any reason, i will say however even the day after Oakley was born, i just remember it feeling like such an out-of-body experience. I believe if i told this story a week later or 6 months later or now it wouldn’t have changed, cause it was SO out of it and really don’t remember timelines, i just remember events! so i’m going to write it all out, and it might not be all that good, but hay! thats my story!

As many know i was a beast when i was pregnant, i gained an average 26lbs but i was so swollen and retained SO much water i couldn’t bend my feet or really do anything! i took my wedding rings  off at 26 weeks and i was just, a hot pregnant mess!! At 35 weeks my OBGYN sent me for an ultrasound to see why i was measuring so big, was it water? was it baby? etc, at that ultrasound O was already 6lbs so that was my reason for measuring 4 weeks ahead, well that at because my belly went straight out! At my 38&39 week appt my dr swept my membranes and stretched me as i was already 1cm dilated since 37 weeks, I was SUPER hopeful as i knew a couple people that went into labour just that day or the day after they had their membranes swept. However it didn’t do anything for me unfortunately! My 39 week appt was really about 39+4 as my dr was on holidays, so at that appt we discussed what my options were going to be i had NO signs of labour ahead really other then i had lost some weight which some say is a sign and my BP was getting a little high for me (regular 70/120 higher 90/150) but nothing like this is defiantly happening i feel something going on!… and since i was already measuring 44weeks pregnant when she was measuring my uterus, she said she was going to call the on call dr that was going to be on, on the weekend and to look forward to a call from her later that day. Well it was just a couple of hours later and she called me to tell me that the on call dr told the hospital to call me on sunday [39+6 which was also CANADA DAY!] morning and as soon as they had a bed for me i was to come in to get induced! i was so excited to meet my little man and to just be a mom and not be pregnant anymore. I called my hubby right away and he shared my excitement as we were just happy to have an eviction date for him. Sunday morning i got up at 6 am and showered and did my hair and my makeup and got dressed etc, i didn’t know when they were going to call me so i wanted to be prepared to leave the house the second they called cause i was so anxious! haha on a side note we only live 5 min from my hospital too so its perfect. At about 11 am i got a call from the hospital to come on in ! so Tyler packed up the car and off we went. We walked into the hospital at about 1115 and went up to labour and delivery they took my papers and got me weighted in and got my height etc. they put me into my room and there i was, i remember looking around thinking oh my god! this is where i am going to have my baby, what?? crazy talk! Anyways they hooked me up to the monitors to check the heart beat and to check my contractions, my nurse then asked me all the question that they usually ask, if i had a birth plan, if i wanted pain medications, who i wanted in the room etc. about an hours later my OBGYN came in to my room by surprise since she wasnt on call but she came in to start my induction, she insert my first dose on cervadil, which BTW totally hurt for a woman she had big hands! AND i was so posterior and i wasnt effaced at all so it wasnt fun being put in. So 1pm ISH i was 1cm dilated, 0%effaced. At about 230 they came back to check on me they had said that Oakley wasn’t responding to the cervail very well and they have to remove it as i was have contractions back to back to back [which werent doing anything because i couldn’t feel them at all but again was making Os  heartrate go way down then way up] So she took the cervadil out and they said they would put me on pitocin. so they put my IV in and got me rigged up. i was still have contractions every 3 minutes but again they wernt painful or doing anything as when they came to check me a couple of hours later i was STILL only 1cm dilated and 0%effaced. At this point i was SUPER sad that not one thing was working, so my OBGYN came back to visit me and said ok its 530 I’m going home for the night we have 2 options keep going with the pit or break your water and keep on the pit. So i was really trying everything to move it along so i told her to break my water. Just as she told me it would, it felt like i was peeing myself and it was warm and she told me it was clear fluid and that all looked great, i remember her telling me she thought i would have a lot more water than i did  because my belly was just so big! Anyways, she cleaned up and changed my pads and wished me good luck, and on her way she went, about 15 min later i decided to get up and walk around and bounce on the birthing ball. As i was bouncing i was in my hospital gown with a bra and tank top on underneath.. can’t remember if i had underwear on?? bounce bounce bounce and all of a sudden Oakley’s head must of been going up and down and all my water came flowing out on the floor!! i was like oh my god ! it’s everywhere! and when i say everywhere i really mean everywhere it was like a puddle the size of like a 4 foot x 4 foot area around me, i was so lucky thought i was able to keep bouncing and my husband and my wonderful SIL cleaned it up.. haha, suckers. It was maybe but 5 minutes later and i got my FIRST contraction that i actually FELT. well i thought it was a contraction but i wasnt sure, it was really painful in my back and it just wasnt fun, that was about at 6 pm. i contracted for a couple hours every 3 minutes which were super painful again all the pain in my lower back, and at about 9 they came in and checked me and, defeat. i was only 2cm dilated and like 20%effaced. SRSLY?! was this real life. I walked the halls and was just in so much pain i couldn’t believe it. i mean i could but i breathed through every contraction and kept walking. One of the nurses came over and showed him some pressure points on my back and seriously when i had a contraction she took the pain away, you think my hubby could recreate that? nope. wonk wonk. ha! Any who, hubby and my SIL were a great support system, i alternated between the sitz bath and the birthing ball etc. I remember wondering when it was going to end, when i was going to have him, what he was going to be like, who he was going to look like, and that kept me going, i truly was in so much pain but i had my eye on the prize and i tried to keep going. At about 4am they checked me and i was 4cm and maybe 50%effaced, so really i hadn’t made like any progress, i was so hard-core pain for already 11 hours and i felt like nothing was happening, they asked me if i wanted an epidural, i hummed and though i went in here opened minded not wanting one but if i needed it then i would, i still felt a little defeated when i said yes please. about 45 minutes later the anesthesiologist came in and did his little blurb made me sign the papers and then i got the epidural. immediately after, they gave me the catheter and it didn’t hurt going it but it hurt when it was in, like BAD, i told the nurse and she said to wait and the epidural should help take that pain away and it should kind of adjust itself in there and it will be better, so 1/2 hours later it was still killing me, so i called the nurse and she took it out. and it was instant relief, she said it looked like it was placed perfectly and it looked good so she wasn’t sure why it was hurting, so right after she gave me another catheter and all was good, no pain, it was great. Apparently after that i slept for 2 hours ( so my SIL and husband said ) but i dont remember doing that i felt like i closed my eyes for a second and then i opened them saying ‘oh no not again, no please no’ my epidural didn’t work, like legit it didnt work, i could still move my legs and feel everything, so there i went i laboured in bed, my contractions went like this for the remainder of my labour: 45 second break, contraction for 90 seconds, 45 second break, contraction for 90 seconds, so on and so forth. i couldn’t catch a break and i remember about 8 am they checked me and i was 6 cm, not sure about effacement. while i was in a contraction it felt like my labour was taking FOREVER and NOT progressing at all, i just kept telling myself i can do this i can do this breath breath and as another contraction came my famous labour words came out each time ‘oh no not again, no please no’ Which, not sure why i said it i knew it was coming each time, must have been my way to deal with it. about 11 am they told me i was 8 cm dilated and boy, i felt it. Because my epi didn’t work, i truly felt like i was feeling the transition state, at this point i kept saying i need to push i need to push and my OBGYN and the nurses said Nicole we JUST checked you, you were only 8cm and 90% effaced you can’t push you’re not ready if you push you can do more harm then good!! i was like well i’m not pushing but my body is! something inside me was trying so hard NOT to push but i couldn’t stop it from happening. When the nurses checked me she could feel Oakley’s head and said he was head down but he was facing sideways instead of the face down or up that they like, so lucky me (not) i got to go into all sorts of positions to try to rotate him, i was on all fours hoping gravity would move him, i squatted, etc you name it i did it. unfortunately nothing was working, so i just laboured on for a couple of hours till about 130pm when they checked me and told me i was 10cm dilated and 100% effaced. i was so happy i think i cried a little! i was thinking YES this is it! i can push and meet my little man…..

My Eleven Month Postpartum Update

well i usually don’t talk about me. or the way i look. ESPECIALLY since i had a baby. but here it goes.

Pre/Post Preg Weight: 124lbs pre, 11months out 114lbs

Pre/Post Pre Cup Size: 34C pre, 34C/D post

Postpartum Period: i got this at 6 months PP. & i still get it, however it’s not normal.. i have sometimes 26 day cycles and other months 34 day cycles.

Contraceptive: at my 6week PP checkup my OBGYN prescribed me the pill & the IUD. i went on the ‘mini’ pill (safe for breastfeeding) for 3 whole days, and it made me SICKER then a dog, i was so dizzy, nauseous, headache etc.. needless to say i stopped taking it. We are definitely practicing SAFE sex haha ( i’m 23 and practicing safe sex, i know COOL LIKE THAT )

Clothes Size: shirts small, sometimes medium, Pants depending on the brand a 2-4 is typical

Feel: i FEEL pretty good, i have good and bad days. Some days i feel like i look pretty good after having a baby, other days i still hate my postpartum body. You may or may not know i got a few hundred stretch marks which are silver and they don’t bother me, but what bothers me is the saggy skin it left cause i got SO many of them. it sucks. but i would do it 300 times over to have my sweet baby.

Other: Since i had Oakley, other things have changed. my hair is STILL falling out, it is slowly growing back too ( i have those awesome horns of hair on the top of my forehead ) but mostly falling out haha. My nails wont grown with the crap!! i had really long nice beautiful nails and then i had a baby.. ive noticed i started breaking out again, which sucks, its like i’m 12 again getting my first period which i’m sure coincides with the fact that PP i’m super oily. i think maybe my hormones are still outta wack?

Baby No. 2: HAHA, yea, right 😉 im SUPER DUPER content with my baby boy right now, and maybe down the line we will think about another one.. not any time soon for sure. although my husband definatly wants another one, im just not convinced…

I think that’s about it for me as for an update, if you have any questions feel free to leave a question below and i’ll be happy to answer 🙂

heres me about 10 3/4 months out..

11 Month Postpartum

HAPPY Mothers Day!

HAYYYYYY! So although I’m still posting from my phone 🙁 I wanted to show you all these amazing little photos of my lil man and my sweet nieces. My sister in law & i got this done for mothers day, and think they turned out fabulously. It’s easy when the kids are so darn cute to photograph. Here’s just a few of our favorites. They were taken at a local park just 10 minutes from my house! And although it was cold the kids did great! Photos were taken by Tricia Moskal Photograhy & we couldnt be any happier! I Hope everyone had a magical mothers day and hope you all got spoiled rotten. xox

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say WHAT?! Oakley is THREE months old!

Seriously? i have a THREE month old? i remember when i would read blogs when i was pregnant about women having two, three, four month olds and thinking wow that seems so far away! & yet here you are three months old.

Three month months old and you have changed so much. I took you to get weighed+measured on your three-month birthday and you weighed 13lbs 2oz & 24 1/4 long! WOW you grew 5lbs & 5 1/4 in since birth! In the last month you’ve learned to [almost] completely roll over by yourself back to front! you LOVE to bounce standing up, and you only love your daddy, no other male can hold you. but that’s ok, you cant help but love your daddy and neither can I. You have officially found your hands and would rather put them in your mouth then your soother. Actually you’ll suck and bite on anything and everything pretty much! You also love your activity mat and you stay there for a couple of hours a day just swinging back and forth your arms, your pretty cute doing it too I must admit. You are getting good at fighting your afternoon nap…but you love to fall asleep in your car seat — now if only we could get you to fall asleep in your crib during the day for long periods of time, like you do at night in your crib!! [which BTW you sleep AMAZING! 930-430 & 5-9, mama loves you for this] We’ve just recently tried out the jolly jumper and it was a hit, I cant wait till your so strong you can bounce like crazy in there! you do so many things I cant even think of them all, ill just say that your little smile and giggles and sweet face just melt my heart everytime & I just cant get enough of you, mama loves you SO much i’m just so excited to watch to grow into the little man you are becoming each and everyday. xox

and for some pictures : )
[just so everyone knows; i’m THAT mom that takes like 34580948304976 flicktures a day !]

happy [canadian] thanksgiving

While this year im thankful for all my family and friends, as well as my health and happiness. I’m especially thankful for my husband and son. Today Oakley wanted to give me ‘thanks’ by ‘giving’ me a gift I don’t ever want to receive again. While I was giving him snuggles and kisses, he spit up IN my mouth. I choked. & swallowed my regurgitated breastmilk…….HOW DID THIS HAPPEN? I don’t really know… but i looked down at him and he’s laughing like ‘what mama i just wanted to share, you don’t like?’

I was lucky enough to have TWO turkey dinners this year spending quality time with my husband’s family! besides my favorite breaded turkey breast the best part is truly coming together and making memories. My husband’s cousin also had a baby 2 months after Oakley was born and the babies just seemed to lighten everyone’s spirits [even though Oakley cried most of the night.. he’s one shy boy!] leave me a comment below and let me know what you are thankful for & your favorite dish at dinner!

happy thanksgiving all!