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Exclusively Pumping. Part One

So here i am, i’m just a mom, who never thought i would be Exclusively Pumping. I didn’t choose this, this is not exactly how i pictured my “breastfeeding journey” to be, this time around. This is not something i ever thought i would have to “deal” with, but here i am, i’m an EP’ing mama, in Canada, and i add “in Canada” because it seems like there is not a lot of EPer up here in the great white north ūüôā I’m hoping this post helps someone, reaches out to someone, makes people understand, and supports anyone who may need it. i feel like this is something i needed to hear when i first started EP’in. i didn’t know where to look for support or where to find information or what i was even getting myself into. This may end up being a couple part series about pumping, all different aspects i hope to cover from the whys, to the how can i, to the what do i need, to the you are enough support! so here i go, from this mama whos 8 months into my pumping journey, i’m no expert but i’m making my way…

WHY? why did you start EPing?¬†So my story starts with my sweetest little. He was born at 8lbs 10oz. He from the beginning, didn’t seem to “get it,” nursing was always a struggle. We tried so many things. after a weigh in at 10 days, he was barely up to his birth weight, and i thought what the heck?! all he does it eat all day everyday. how could that be? maybe i was naive because i fed from the breast “nursing” with my first born for 15 months with virtually no issues, and i thought this time would be a breeze just like that. WRONG. So at 10 days, i called a Lactation Consultant (around 300$), i told her our issues, and she agreed to me with ,me the following Monday. Monday came and when she came over all i did was cry, i cried in my bed because my baby wasn’t eating. i was pretty sure he had a lip and tongue tip. and she did confirm it, she sat with me while i tried to open his mouth ¬†to nurse, tried to change positions, tried to do anything in my power to nurse, but he wouldn’t.

I will say my nipples had never been so sore in my entire life. i mean bleeding, more then cracked, and i would cry every time i latched him. After a few days of this, the pain went away and when she(the lactation consultant) seen my nipples for the first time she said oh my goodness you must be in so much pain, i said i was, but the pain had subsided quite a bit. She told me that was because i had 3rd degree nipple trauma where the nerve ending was so damaged that it basically takes away any pain but they were so butchered. She gave me medi-honey and it was my saving grace, i could notice a difference within a day or two, this was life changing for me, and i was healed up in no time.

She offered me this “sns” system¬†for feeding which is virtually a little tube that you can attach to your breast and have milk in the container around your neck so while they nurse they don’t have to work as hard to get milk but they are still at the breast encouraging milk flow. ¬†We tried everything for around 2 hours, and she said yes, you are doing everything correctly, Haynes just cant latch because of his lip/tongue tie. She than referred me to a pediatric Dentist that specializes in releasing ties via laser. I got in with her just 3 days later, At 2 weeks old, Haynes was still not at his birth weight, he always was trying to nurse but still couldn’t get it. While at the dentist she confirmed our suspicions of a LT/TT and she told me he also had a very high pallet. She said Haynes had one of the most extreme LT/TT she had ever seen and she wouldn’t push me to release them but did tell me she highly highly recommended it. She went into telling me about how if your tongue is restricted it cant do other functions later in life. So he wouldn’t just be affected by the inability to nurse, he would be a high chance of Speech delays or other speech issues as well as other oral hygiene issues. I went in there knowing i was going to get them released as i was longing for another wonderful from-the-breast breastfeeding journey, so that is exactly what i did. The cost was around, 1000$, a small portion was covered by my benefits and the rest i paid out of pocket. she of coarse when over the risks and made me sign all these scary papers, and they took him back, by the time i paid for the procedure, and went to the bathroom, he was already finished and outside the room waiting for me to nurse him. i was so happy. they had a nursing room for moms, and brought me back and i nursed him immediately. i could tell right away that he was a MUCH better nurser, and i cried tears of joy! I had to stick around for about 15 minutes for them to continue to monitor the bleeding(which was seriously SO little, i didnt really see any at all), all was great, one of the staff showed me the stretches i had to do 6x a day for 6 weeks and off i went to go home and relearn and reteach Haynes how to nurse.



Things seemed to be going ok, they seemed like he started to really get the hang of it, although he defiantly wasn’t efficient. When out of the blue he had a preference, he would only nurse when i would sit in my bed, holding him in the football hold. We would be out and about and he would cry and cry because he was hungry, but he wouldn’t nurse. in return here i was again crying. So i had to run home, and nurse him, i tried every thing, you name it i tried it, i bought the nursing pillow with me while we were out, i tried bringing a pillow case with me, i tried everything, and nothing was helping. Haynes then went from only nursing in my bed that way to even more specific, it had to be pitch black dark for him to nurse, or else, you guessed it… STRIKE! he wouldn’t nurse. By this time i’m sure i had hardly any hair’s on my head left from stress, i didn’t and he didn’t sleep because he was so damn gassy (found out that it was allergies but that’s for another post…..) my boobs were so engorged because he wouldn’t nurse and i was just, sad, so freaking sad. i cried. ALOT. ¬†After a few weeks of him doing this, Trying to push the breast, trying the use the SNS system, trying to get him to nurse, without success, i decided with a heavy heart, i needed to pump. I spent a week or more thinking about this, and talking to family about it, i’m so lucky that i actually have a local friend who is also a EP’er and she gave me so much strength to do it. Everyone around me knows how much i love from the breast breastfeeding (nursing) and couldn’t believe that i was going to stop, but for my baby, i had to put aside what I wanted and do what was best for him. FED IS BEST. This was probably the 2nd hardest thing i ever had to do, the first being actually pumping. even with pumping, i had attempted to latch him before every single feed for months after switch to EP’ing and bottle feeding. He never nursed again.


So, now i’m pumping. and i have NO IDEA where to start or what to do. what do i need to pump? How often should i pump? how long should i pump? how much should i be feeding my baby? how do i pump and occupy the baby? how do i store breastmilk? what bottles should i use? i was CLUELESS!!! there was so many unknowns. So here’s what worked for me, this by no means will work for everyone, and is just a guide to help.



i’ll share this with you: one day i was at the store and Haynes was HANGRY! so i pulled out a freshly pumped bottle of breastmilk and i got shamed by someone walking by me in the aisle for not breastfeeding my son. SHE DIDN’T KNOW ME! she had no say, whether i was feeding Haynes breastmilk, formula, or nursed him, she had no right to judge me. She didn’t know what i had been though, she didn’t know how hard i fought for feeding from the breast, she didn’t know how many times i cried, she didn’t know. but she judged me. I’ve never felt so little in my life. NEVER. i went home and i cried. I texted my friend, and she was angry for me and apologized for the way the lady treated me. I¬†will never forget how she made me feel that day in the grocery store. I want everyone to remember that YOU DON’T KNOW what someone has been through, you don’t know if they cant breastfeed for medical reasons, or by choice, or because they have tried every possible thing they could do and it still didn’t work out. Don’t judge. As a freshly postpartum mama, this is the life i’m living, no matter if it was by choice or not. This is my life. MY CHILD IS FED! and happy, and thriving. This is why i pump. i pump for him.

So, here’s where part one of my post comes in:

What do you need to pump? ALOT. you need alot of stuff to pump, i will be honest and say pumping is expensive. Some pumps and accessories are covered by insurance while others are not so defiantly look into your insruance and see if you can get any of the following for FREE! or even partially covered!

  1. a pump. i’ve had a Medela PISA, and a speCtra S2. i would never in my life buy anything other than a speCtra again!! As an EP’er you want a pump thats hospital grade esentially. So a full size pump. like i mentioned HANDS DOWN SPECTRA! i love mine because of the price (120$ usd), because its quiet and small, and because its a closed system so you never have to worry about milk flowing into your pump, which can happen with an open machine.
  2. extra pump parts. you need 2 or more of everything. things like Extra tubing, flanges (ensure you have been correctly fitted by a LC so you get the best output of milk! if you cant see a LC find a diagram here on how to get properly fitting flanges), backflow protectors, bottles to pump into, valves and membranes ( i personally find the duckbills give the best output, have 8-10 of these on hand as these you change very often some may last months and other times just weeks). So every part your pump has, 2-3 of each extras, and if you are a working pumping mama, a 2nd pump could also help you out, keep one at home and one at work! all of these things can run you around another (150-350$)
  3. nipple cream. my tried and true is the lansinoh lanolin  around 10$/tube i use this every single time i pump so make sure you have extras on hand.
  4. storage bottles and storage bags. i had to hack my spectra bottle/flanges as i am a 19mm & 17mm flange size(i purchased the correct size from maymom and they have been great, thats who speCtra recommends if you need parts they dont sell). and speCtra only has 24 & 27mm (and maybe a 30?) so i dont actually pump into the speCtra bottles that were provided in the pump(find out HERE what bottles are compatible with your breastpump/flanges i pump into these cheapie first essential bottles which i like because they have the OZ imprinted into the plastic where as alot of the bottles have them wirtten on with some type of colouring or ink that just ends up washing off in the sink and then you never know how much your pumping. i have 4 of these, i just use 2 at a time, and then rinse, and pop in the fridge, and then use the next two if im out of if im washing my other ones. There are other ones like these medelas but i just like that if i need to i can pop over to walmart and grab them, and they are cheap! now once im finished pumping i put all my milk into these storage bottles because i like the lids, and although the writing does wash off after awhile i already know how much ive stored in them because my initial pump bottles told me. As for storage bags, at the end of the night i try to bag up all of my excess milk ive pump for that Haynes never drank, so i transfer from the storage bottles that were in the fridge to these bags. i USED to use the lansinoh, till i had nothing but leaking issues once defrosted, and as an EPer there is nothing worse than seeing all your hard work milk leaking out of the bottom of the bag!
  5. washing “utensils”.¬†a good brush a nipple cleaner, a few of them, as you will notice they get kinda gunky ( is that even a word? ) but from the build up of nipple cream and fatty milk they should just be swapped out often, i use a new one every month. this is that one i use.¬† A good drying rack will also be your friend. i use this and this
  6. bottles for your baby to feed from:¬†i tried a few bottles as Haynes always seemed to leak milk, not sure why, but it would just pour out of the sides of his mouth that ones that ultimately worked best for us were the playtex nurser bottles. I didn’t go out and buy like a huge set of 10 or 12 bottles. i just got 2, because i can do a quick rinse and pop a new liner in, all i need is just the 2 and i’ve never felt like i needed more. Haynes still drinks 7 bottles a day so i just rotate then 2 and it works great. I also chose these bottles for gas reasons, you push out all the air and all they get is the milk!
  7. family support: this one is very important also, pumping is ALOT of work. it takes ALOT of time and dedication, a supporting significant other can make the world of difference in your pumping journey!
  8. *optional* if you want to be hands free you can try these freemies, which ive heard great things about but i just never went for them, the less money i spent in my eyes the better!!! you could also get an optional portable pump like the speCtra s9+ which is a tiny pump for on the go for a few times a week pumps( i wouldn’t use it more than that as its truly not a strong enough pump to use an an EP’er constantly.) Also optional, are ¬†these cool and hot pads for things like clogs that might arise


next blog post in this “series” will be all about ¬†my pumping schedule!


all about haynes

so lets do a quick run down. He was due on October 3 2016, and born Oct 3rd 2016! That’s right folks! i had TWO due date babies. and that just doesn’t happen! ill spare you the misery i was feeling up to that point, as i was basically told by my OBGYN that i wouldn’t be able to birth a baby over 5 lbs, if i was lucky, and as you may or may not recall i was aiming for a VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean). HOWEVER, i had the most amazing Doula of life. Suzanne, and i had great support system at home, and the Friday before i was due i went into my 40 week OBGYN appt, i was 1.5cm dilated, 75% effaced baby was still high at -2 station i believe, and she did a very intense membrane sweet, so dang hard i remember the exam table shaking. Right after that appy, ¬†I went in for an hour long acupuncture session. Following that appt i was starting to have contractions, for the following two days i was having on again off again prodromal labor. I was supposed to go to my husbands cousins wedding that Saturday night but it was in another city (not too far from ours) but i just wasn’t sure if this was going to turn into the real deal or not. I was texting my SIL on and off again about my contractions. Around 1am they died down and i fell asleep. 430 am they woke me up, with intense back pains with my contractions, i was ecstatic and I decided to time them. They were about 6 min apart for 45 seconds. After a few hours of that, again they died down. Throughout that Sunday morning i was having contractions but i didn’t think too much of it as i had been having them since Friday morning. So i decided to get ready, do my hair and my makeup, which i had not really been doing for the last few weeks and said imma look good today! We got all ready, and left the house to go to my in-laws for our regular Sunday dinner. As we pulled out of the garage i said to my husband, maybe we should grab my hospital bag just incase? he said “nah! ill come back and get it if i need to” We arrived at my In-laws around 230. Shortly after i was standing in the kitchen making banana carrot muffins and GUSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH(430pm oct.2). my water broke! i ¬†looked up at my mother in law and said my water just broke! she said no it didn’t your not leaking anywhere! i said thats cause i’m trying to hold it in LOL. as if i could do that…. so i yelled to my husband, DONT PANIC BUT MY WATER JUST BROKE. well, as you can imagine he started pacing and freaking out. I shouted up to my sister in law, and she got me a towel, and i boogied over to the bathroom, i pulled down my pants to sit on the toilet and was sad to see i had mecconium in my water. i called my Doula at 436 and said SUZANNE MY WATER JUST BROKE! i told her i had what i was pretty sure was mecconium so she told me to head over to the hospital as i was going for a VBAC the protocol is pretty strict, especially with MEC. I got to the hospital and checked in and told her yes it was confirmed my water broke and she was just in the middle of having a dinner but she was close by and she would be right over…. heres the summary of the next 20 or so hours from notes i got back from my Doula.

October 2 2016
530pm: VBAC protocol, want her NDP, IV, no breaks. Internal lead put in
940pm: Continuous EFM, Stands by bedside and sways.
11pm: hands and knees on bed, Stands leans on bed,
October 3 2016
120am: feels pressure with contractions
1:55am dangle squats & snowplow
3am: sat on the toilet backwards
345am: lay down
450am: 3cm and shaking; wants sitz bath but told no by charge nurse due to internal lead
630am: sit on birthing ball
730am: OBGYN confirmed allowed to go in sitz bath thats why she placed the internal lead.
930am: sits in labor chair — in the zone!!
1050am: sits on toilet.
11am: 5cm
1250pm: 8cm
130pm: lip on cervix, hands and knees
240pm: fully dilated! lip was pushed back by Rachel RN, starts pushing with Marci and Rachel
419pm: BABY BOY! 8lbs 10oz 21inches; natural vaginal delivery.

So, there it is, i had a VBAC, 100% natural, birth my sweetest little Haynes. i most defiantly could not do it without my Doula. And this one amazing nurse Marci. I had some unpleasant experiences like one nurse telling me i was going to end it a repeat c section so i should just take all my jewelry out now. ¬†Ya, i told her to leave and not come back, i didn’t need that negativity in my life. ALSO, the charge nurse that refused to call my OBGYN to get the OK to sit in the sitz bath because she said my dr wouldn’t allow it, even though myself and my Doula heard her say it to me and was the reason for the internal lead placed inside of me so i could come off of continuous monitoring while i was in the bath. I didn’t get EVERYTHING i wanted. i had rented a pool but because i was “thick mec” they didn’t allow it, and i didn’t want an IV, i had to have one. i didn’t want to be continuously monitored but had to be. so it was give and take, i got the birth that i wanted and i couldn’t have been anymore thankful. Immediately i got to do skin to skin, i did delayed cord clamping, and he latched on to breastfeed almost immediately. Haynes came out perfect, in a room full of 2OBGYNs, 1 Doula, 3 nurses, my husband, my sister in law, a pediatrician, a respiratory dr in case Haynes were to breath in the MEC. but it didn’t matter, i didn’t see anyone, all i saw was this perfect human, that i created, being born into a room of love, in the most natural way possible. i KNEW my body could do it. and i’m so happy i had the birth i did, Haynes healed me in so many way that i didn’t know i needed healing.


First Family Photo

First Family Photo

Let’s play catch up!

let’s fill you in. Last i left off i was 12 weeks pregnant! HA, feels like a life time ago.¬†We welcomed Haynes Xander to the fam on October 3 2016 on his due date after 24 hours of labour (birth story coming soon) since then we’ve been adjusting to life as a family of 4+a pooch!

Where have you been? having a baby and raising a strong willed almost f i v e year old

Why have you been gone so long? adjusting to life. being a momx2 is no joke, add in exclusively pumping, a baby with allergies, school for the first born, not sleeping at all in the first 6 months of life after baby, yeaaaaa.

Hows the first born? Oaks it great! graduating from prek in 3 weeks and off to kinder he goes. hes becoming such a little man, its so fun to watch him grow.

Hows the 2nd born? so sweet, hes such a happy baby. The first 6 months were a blur. He didn’t sleep, he didn’t want to nurse, he has allergies, he had the worst gas, upset tummy, diaper rash that lasted months, but we’ve finally hit a semi sweet spot ( besides teething because he has almost 6 of those now!) ¬†we’ve got the allergy thing under control and its made a world of difference!

How are YOU feeling post partum? SLUGGISH! i mean, im sure its cause i didn’t sleep, ot even a wink, since he was born. But i dont feel as great about myself pp as i with with oaks, maybe its cause i was younger than, maybe its because its just a 2nd time thing, maybe its a combination of things. I will say i cant wait to wean from the pump, and get ME back. my body, my boobs, my life, ME.

Besides having a baby, whats happened in the last year? Well, not alot has changed. We have renovated our 2nd floor of our house. We got a puppy. Had Haynes, my hubby started a new concrete company! life just been busy, but its been fun!

Plans for the next year? Enjoy life. i want to soak in all the baby snuggles. I want to take a few classes. I want to go on vacation! and i want to see where life takes me!

Furture of the blog? i really hope to start to document more of the kids. i want to be able to look back and remember all of what happened over the years of the kiddos growing up. they truly are the light of my life. i love being able to watch them grow and be able to document it for everyone near and far to see. i hope to post once a week as that is currently an obtainable goal. anything extra and we will be golden!

Oakley & Haynes

photos taken May 31 2017





all about that bump: week 12

thats right! baby number DOS! can you believe it?

How far along? 12 weeks
How big is the peanut? according to my ovia app,  babe is the size of a bee hummingbird
Total weight gain/loss? down 6 lbs, this pregnancy has got me living by the toilet!
Maternity clothes? mostly, i mean i still fit regular shirts they are just short, pants ha yea no, those suckers are maternity
Sleep? eh, i have some good and some bad nights, i seem to be exhausted, but cant seem to settle and my stomach is SO uneasy i just cant.
Best moment this week? telling the WORLD were pregnant!
Symptoms? vomit, vomit, vomit, and more vomit?
Food cravings? pure leaf lemon iced tea
Food aversions? basically all food, i cant handle food, if i eat it comes back up so really..
Gender? NO clue, with Oakley i FELT boy, this time no signs, dreams, nothing!
Labor signs? NO! those can stay away for a long long long long long time, well when i’m 37-39 weeks those can come but not now
Belly button in or out? in! although its really wonky shaped from my pregnancy with Oaks, its pretty funny looking actually.
What I miss? being able to go in the hot tub, its still cold-ish where i live and i love taking a dip!
What I’m looking forward to? my ultrasound on Tuesday! and looking into a doula & newborn photographer
Milestones? one day this week i didnt puke! WHAT?! lol
Bump? bump or bloat?  not sure but theres a lil somthing there. not sure how big ill be this time around but seems bigger than last time! i do have a completely open diastasis recti so everything seems to be pushing out alot more this time

a broken foot & preschool!!!

i. cant. even. three. years. old. in prek. HOW did this happen? how did he get so big? why doesn’t he even miss me when he’s there LOL. On Sept 6th 2015, Oak’s started prek. He was so excited to see his teacher “miss amanda” and play with “all his friends” that he told me he had (although he had never met any of them haha) i kept thinking this is the day weve been working up since summer started and its here. in the blink of an eye. He goes 3 days a week 3 hours a day. its perfect for me to clean house and do laundry and make supper. about a week before school started i decided it was time to take away his naps as he was still sleeping his 130-400 everyday but then he wouldn’t go to bed till 9 at night and then sleep in the next morning till 830… and that wouldn’t work as he had to be at school at 830. so now our day is up at 730, plays for 15, has breakfast, get dressed, and out the door at 820. i come home clean prep dinner, etc. and hop back to get Oak’s at 1130. its the perfect amount of time for me, and the perfect amount of time for him! his teacher, his SLP, and OT, all say he is doing wonderful. he truly is becoming the perfect little man.

prek, pre air cast

prek, pre air cast

In other news if you didn’t see on my Instagram, 2 days before school started, we were at a family BBQ, and oak’s got caught in the cross of a bigger dog, and he got hit, flew, fell, and broke his foot! At first i just thought it was like sprained or something less severe, but after 8 hours with alternating Tylenol and Advil we decided to go to the stollery to get it looked at. We wernt in the waiting room long however once we were put in the room we waited about 2-3 hours before the doctor came in and sent us for some x-rays. When the Dr came around after he was thrilled to tell us Oakley didn’t break his foot but he had to talk to the pediatrician on call and then he would release us. Well, i guess they chatted and looked more closely at the x-ray and it was broken or fractured as he said. it was the metatarsal bone connected to his big toe…The Dr at the time said we didn’t need a cast because of where the break was but he did tell us we needed to follow up with a pediatric orthopedic surgeon, and off we went. 1 1/2 weeks later we met with this awesome peds’ specialist and she was shocked that he didn’t have a cast and shocked that the Dr. even said he didn’t need one. We tried to put a cast on and well that didn’t go as planned, he was hysterical. ¬†I kept yelling wheres plan b wheres plan b, ¬†as you could have guessed they didn’t have one. about 10 min goes by and she comes in with the tiniest air cast ever. we put it on and Oak’s was thrilled. ” i can walk again ” he screamed! it was so sweet. all the nurses and technicians were giggling at how cute he was. we left rebooking for 3 weeks later. ¬†so on Sept 30th we the went back and they re x-ray’ed the foot. turns out Oak’s broke 4 bones in his foot. They didn’t show up in previous x-rays and they aren’t quite sure why but the Dr. did say its one of the weirdest breaks shes ever seen in her career. She told me like it is – “if this break happened to an adult, they would have been off work for 3 months, no walking, and multiple surgeries” HOLY CRAP! The specialist also said that although Oakley is healing great there are 2 bones with abnormalities on them, which we will keep an eye on. We have since taken his air¬†cast off and he is walking, with a bit of a limp but that’s to be expected. We have another follow up in 6 weeks and then again in 3 months

3 stages of the break!

3 stages of the break!

thrilled to have his air cast on.

thrilled to have his air cast on.

besides school and his broken foot, we are all doing wonderfully, and now that this is my new normal i hope to blog more often, i really love looking back and remembering all these memories and milestones oakley has had.


“Oakee big boy momma”

here’s an ppdate on sweet little {not so little} baby cakes!

How Old: 2 1/2 (32 months)

Height & Weight:¬†42″ (99%) & 29 lbs (40%)

Teeth: he has all of them!

Sleeping: still¬†great! 130-4 he takes a¬†nap and 9pm-8am is his bed time sleepy time… ¬†unless he has a nightmare which is rare he doesn’t really wake anymore at night. He now sleeps with his two stuffed dogs a chocolate lab he calls¬†and a pomerania he calls booboo, and usually a hot wheels car. i pick my battles LOL

Drinking: water, diluted juice, yogurt drinks and 2% milk

Eating: most everything except meat.  THE STRUGGLE IS REAL!

Diaper Size:¬†Oak has been PT’ed since his birthday.

Clothing Size: basically were moving everything to 3T right now, which is a freakin issue because hes tall and skinny he needs the length however, he needs adjustable waistbands for the skinny boy problems ha!

Love‚Äôs:¬†what he wants when he wants. typical 2 year old. he loves his big cousins, loves puppies and kitties and loves to brush his teeth himself…. also currently obsessed with pancakes. he wants them every single day for breakfast.

Loathe‚Äôs: meat… the struggle is real. boy doesnt like meat. hes like his momma. he also hates being woken up and doesn’t like to be inturpted to do anything like eat or potty if he’s playing.

Words: i think at his age he should be saying about 300 words, putting together 2 and 3 word sentances and really starting to take off with vocab, but hes defiantly no where near that yet. as i said in previous posts we are working with speech laungage pathologists (SLP) and have registered him in a SLP prek class and starts in september 4 days a week 1/2 days, which i really think is going to make a HUGE difference. he currently says probably 100-150 words, combining a few sentances. but has a long way to go. Last time he was assessed he was about 10 months behind where he should be.

Personality: so kind, so sweet, so well mannered. and simply inspiring.



whats goin’ on?! let’s catch up.

ahh been so long, i really miss writing out my thoughts. i go back on all my older posts and love reading what oak did at that time in his little life. so sweet. ANYWAYS! been crazy, obviously. but no excuses here.

We went to mexico! did i tell yall? it was amazeballs heavenly beautiful. Tyler and I got married four years ago at the Barcelo in the Mayan Riviera and loved it so much we went back and took Oakley for a little vaca/xmas gift/anniversary gift for one another. we had seriously, SO.MUCH.FUN. Although vacationing with a 2 year old was trying at times, we just had the best of time. Oakley was obsessed with the kids club, chocolate milk shakes, and late night dips in the pool. I was super worried he was going to get TMI Travellers …(poops)…. but he didn’t. so all was well and i’m super looking farward to our next vacation.

In other news, Christmas was awesome. Oak got spoiled, rotten. a ton of typical boys stuff. cars, trains, more cars, books, and more cars, haha you guessed it!!

Tyler and I celebrated our 4 year wedding anniversary on Jan 11. i cannot believe its been four years!! its flown by, seriously. FLOWN! obviously when you have kids it does fly by.. but its just feels like the blink of an eye. i’m sure 10 years married will feel like 6 months passing.

Not sure if i’ve ever mentioned anything about it? Oakley has had a speech delay for basically as long as i can remember. He never really started even making sounds other than mama and dada till 18 months. Currently he is behind about 10 months, and for the last year we have been working with a speech pathologist, doing one on one’s, group play-and-say’s etc, and this month we have his assessment to see where he’s at, at if he will get government funding for school that has a SLP ¬†and OT in his classroom, regardless i registered him in pre-k, tuesday-friday 845-1145, which is alot but for his speech it will be great!!! & let me tell you… when i registered him for classes, i went to the school, and cried. and when i say cried i mean UGLY CRIED. One of the teachers pulled me in her office and gave me a box of Kleenex. It was epic. and yes i’m THAT MOM. i’m so excited for him to go to school, make friends, have fun, expand his speech and learn a TON… but i’m seriously going to miss our all day everyday mommy and oak days. wahh. The school is awesome, they¬†have field trips¬†all over to ex. the science center, swimming lessons, music shows, etc, eek hes going to have SO MUCH FUN!!

As for ME?!@!!!@#$(!@&*# WELL. i’m pretty stinkin good. I cant complain. Im feeling good.. currently i’m on a cleanse, which ill tell more later, making a commitment for gym time 3 days a week. doing some serious clean eating. and i’ve finally realized i cant eat like a 15 yo anymore!!! it does straight to my ass, and belly!! bahaha. i’ll be posting my fitness journey soon.


i know your all still wondering, and NOPE i’m not pregnant now, and still no plans to anytime soon, if ever.

So thats if for now i think? im sure theres more i forgot to say…. ill be doing an in depth update of oak soon. if you arnt already make sure you follow my instagram i update pretty well daily there.




i have NO excuse! WORST BLOGGER EVERRRRRRR! somehow the holidays get the best of me and I seem to fall out of blogging! Quick update were all great we went to Mexico we had a great Christmas and New Years and 2015 has treated us very well so far. So much to update on and I PROMISE its coming in a couple days! I’ll probly do a post on oakley and then one on me ūüôā



embarking on: project life.

lets just start out ¬†by saying I’m so excited to do this, ive done scrapbooking before but nothing like this. if you don’t know what project life is click here. basically becky higgins states this on her website

“The idea is simple: Photos + memorabilia + journaling together in an album – everything slips into pockets. No requirement to cut or glue or embellish a thing.”

so i looked around and found a few things that i decided to get. i ordered some from the becky higgins website to get started, then JUST MY LUCK i went to Michael’s this past weekend and all their project life stuff was on sale 40% off PLUS 20% off extra all the purchases, i also bought some storage which i needed to do years ago but i just didn’t. but again was lucky and Michael’s had their storage 40% off + the 20% off so again 60% off pretty well everything i bought, SO here’s what i got over the last week to start my project life, which I’m going to link as many as possible since they might not have them listed on the Michael’s website or the BH website.

WHAT I GOT {#pl brand}
2 binders, here and here
8 core kits, which i went a little crazy on, but again i got them 60% off so i thought i did great. my kids included, Aqua Edition, Honey Edition, Kiwi Edition, Midnight Edition, Sunshine Edition, Cinnamon Edition, 5th and Frolic Edition, and the Dreamy Edition
3 value kits, Boys Rule, Foil, and Good Times
2 mini kits, Holiday, and Seasons
7 different pocket page protectors, a couple of each but these are the ones i got, Design A,  Design D, Design G,
1 pack of lined cards here
Project life Date Stamp
Project Life Corner Rounder, which i had one already but this one is way better quality
5¬†or so packs of stickers (which i couldn’t find to link but i will take some pics and put below)
3 stencils
3pack of stencil paint

WHAT I GOT {all the other stuff}
2 pack washi tape holder
2 five drawer organizer
Silhouette Cameo Bundle ( THIS WAS MY BIG BIG BIG SPLURGE & i’m waiting for it to be shipped to me & will do a little review when i get it)

& then i got a bunch of little odds and ends, you will start seeing my posts ones a week i think I’ll do a project life sunday spread or something of this nature. i’m so excited to start this again something I’ve wanted to do for so long i just haven’t gotten around to it, and to start it can be pricey {well i made it pricey cause i bought everything LOL} id liked to go back a nd make a first and second year of life for oakley too but of course ill start with this and go from there. see what i can handle, i’m defiantly committing to this for at least the year {#pl365} but would like to continue this forever as i just think it’s a great way to look back on life week by week! so expect this to roll out in the next couple of weeks, I’ve been snapping pics this week and so it might be about a week or 2 delayed by the time i print, do the pages and get the post up. PLEASE HOLD ME ACCOUNTABLE I WANT TO SUCCEED!!!

here’s my little setup right now and heres a little¬†haul of the stuff i got, when i get all setup with everything thats being shipped to me i will do a new post with all my goodies.


much love.